Blonch! Glad to see you! I guess you meant to ask how have I been this last year* and the answer is good! I mean, after last year, every situation would appear less stressful and it definitely is going fine on my side, how about you?
It's been a mixed bag, but it's basically teenager drama. Yada yada crushes, yada yada homework, yada yada more romance drama, yada yada diving into high school, and here I am.
The most important thing Wikia-wise would probably that I got a Mac, and so I lost the password to Perfecto (I mean, I just relied on my Windows Chrome keeping me logged in).
Oh, and Mich pulled me into the FNAF wiki Discord, and then I made a fool of myself :D and then Fadded pulled Ligalig in, which was a pretty nice surprise. Me and Yan were talking about old people and mods and so we talked a bit about you and I remembered DS existed, so I went on the DS wiki, and it's freaking what, part 82? But I thought it would better to talk to you here than appearing on the thread out of nowhere.
Yeah, haha, teenager drama seems like a trend these days. University here brought me to start an internship in the middle of the year, leaving my summer completely work-free thanks to a fully mastered first semester, too.
And Oh, surprising some of you thought about me x3
And even more surprised you think part 82 is a big step, because I still believe we aren't going very far or doing much else than meeting new people and trying to reach the future-new-unintroduced elementals. And it's been very slow these past months, but it's going better :)
*sigh* Yea, I guess there isn't much else for teens to be dramatic about.
Oh, university, nice. We're starting to worry about them now we're in 9th grade, but I haven't made up anything other than avoiding US universities if I can.
I left around part 59, and I was frankly expecting DS to have died in the intermediate years, so 82 sounds like a lot already. I see Yandere's gone though, which is a shame, I enjoyed RPing with her. Aki's gone too, dang...are companions still a thing?
My thinking is just that most drama is irrelevant, coming from over-exaggerating people, and that we should just let these bad vibes fly over our heads like it was nothing. Usually, people start drama to get good people involved. And it's sad when these good people have to get into that business.
Hahaha, sounds like a better plan than I had, because I only took my decision when I was in last year of highschool xD
Alright I already had an idea on what I was good at and who I wanted to be, but still. Only made up my mind at that time :p
It's really really sad that Yan has to get silent and be kicked out of the roleplay, instead of telling us and go down in glory, sorta. And yeah, Aki's gone but they're on Discord now I think, I have very little interaction. Companions aren't and probably will not ever be a thing again. Even Skaitleen had to abandon Scarlet :(
Oh, no, I didn't mean drama like the American-high-school you-stole-my-boyfriend-esque shit, nothing toxic. Just trying and failing to save a relationship and the accompanying oh-I-want-to-stand-outside-in-the-rain sort of stuff.
I don't have any university planned though, my parents lean towards UCLA but that's America...I'd want to go to one in NZ or Europe, maybe finally get my German in order.
Yeah, I sort of miss roleplaying with y'all and doing shits and giggles, especially with Yan and Toreador. Now we've got another Yan, don't think they're the same though. And aww, why'd Jaz remove companions? They seemed like a decent idea, was it the membership loss?
Hey, sorry to bother, i realize i already asked Ethan to ask you but, id really like to chat with you in real time, i just wanna chat with you and talk some stuff out if thats ok, but i feel like this would be a bit too impersonal so id like to know when you'd be avalible to chat, dw about my schedule, im literally avalible 24/7 though im not sure whats your time schedule or if youre comfortable sharing that so i have pacific standard time if you wish to tell me when could you be avalible in my time zone hours.
Oh hey Rak, sorry I couldn't answer sooner because I was already about to sleep when you asked Ethan to tell me what you've just told me :p
Thing is, I'm having a hellish week and there won't be any time for me to join a chat in real time before the weekend, when I will definitely be out of this exam session. That is, if I survive them :')
I'm in UTC+1:00 Winter Time (Northern Hemisphere winter, of course x) ) Thought it was pretty well known that I'm in Central European Time by now :p
Well now that it's over, I've got to read what I've written in the last week and I first wanted to apologize a little bit for the general behaviour I showed, and how bitter I acted in the thread about Discussions.
Also you could have asked Spec, he's given it away once already :p
And yeah, now I think I'm gonna be as much as I can in chat unless my mom throws me off my chair and tells me to go look at something else than my computer screen. I don't know if I'll be in DS chat though, this one is more peaceful and I can be lonely in there. If you don't see me, shoot me a message on here or on DSwiki to call me in chat, I'll simply break a window open and jumps through it.
hmmm this doesnt seem to be working well, whenver i check i just dont see you around, how about you just message me here whenever you can join the chat and ill join as soon as i can, hopefully wont be more than a minute long from when you message me. :p
You know, one important thing to keep in mind is that for things such as what you are going through, there are no "I'm/You're weak". And even.if you were, it's okay to be weak, to feel fragile against things that hit us hard. And that's why help is sometimes needed. Sometimes it just makes us feel better to have someone who cares when one thinks they are alone. And I am always all ears for any friend who would come to me and needs help :)
Without thinking they are weak. Never will I think such a thing :3
Well, Im better now Ive been sick for awhile but Im healed, some stupid bad disposition I had one nigh that lasted for a day. Oh and its cold but fortunately its not so bad on that part. I've also been thinking about something else that I wanted to talk with you.
Well you see, I've been thinking about... How can I put this... I've been in a deep thought for months now of changing my persona into something else because I just feel it doesnt fit in with myself anymore, I would say why but it would be too long and complicated. but the thing is, even after all this time I still feel unsure whether to do it or not. Another thing is I dont know how things would be, I mean... Jaz wouldnt mind it, and Rak wouldnt mind it either, but hes been so used to me being a bun bun, and all this just comflicts with stuff in my head you know. I mean, Ive been a bun bun for a long time so to just change like that feels... Odd for some I suppose, and I have this inner struggle whether to do it or not.
Ooooh, I see. Well the most concerned people are you and Rak, that's what I would say. I've had many friends going through different sonas, with always the same general attitude! And I've been very fine with it, so I see no problem.
You should just first make sure if you want to change, then ask yourself (and maybe just Rak too) who would you like to be seen as, if it really fits you, before really changing. And even after the change, it's still Time to go back to being a bun, or even change your sona again, I am sure there is absolutely no pressure from me and others :)
Remember, Jaz first was seen as Mangle for a long time too, then changed into a more feline, versatile character. I've been a humanized bunny before fully accepting my 'furry'ness and just going with Hugh's ref :)
So really, you shouldn't worry that much about it. You just have to make the right choice for yourself, with the possibility to revert or change your sona again in the future :3
Thanks Para... Its just Its been really hard for me, Jaz gave me the suggestion of a shapeshifting persona but I feel that would be betraying my old if the change does happen, in a way I see my bun bun self as a persona from the past that I got from past experiences and now for the first time I want to look forward to the future because time doesnt go back (You would know you are the bun of time :p). And thats why Ive been struggling with this, if I move forward I dont want to keep these experiences of the past so I feel it would be right to change my persona for the future to come. It just... Feels right you know. No more looking back and just forward, no more self pity and pain over past memories. Thou as Jaz said it could take some time, Jaz also had that experience as you said, and you too, its just the time it takes.
Still its nice to know you all are so sweet independent of my choices <:3
Shape shifting is bleh in my opinion, because it only fits with mind-changing people. You don't often change your mind, if I recall well :p
And you have all your time to change, too, Spec. Just know that you are surrounded with lots of support, and that since our advices aren't always the best, you are very much free to choose your future sona for yourself, and it maybe doesn't even have to be an anthro or something x)
Moving on is hard, I can tell you. But having regrets is even worse. Just like what life is trying to teach us, that there sometimes no great solution; just one better than another. And the important thing is to focus on what's good in the better path you take :3
Hue personally since you like some buff characters with lots of fluffiness and kindness, I see you as a brown bear ;3
Yes I support you on that, its because practice makes perfection you know, Ive been actually training myself at drawing female bodies and at first it was very confusing adapting it to my style but now I can draw them pretty well I would say. I actually got another character accidentally from practicing it and I ended loving her so much I cant stop drawing her now either :p And with eachdrawing she evolves more and more.
Also because size yes, I want to see that Hugh face more closely :3 (Totally not because its cute derp)
Yeah, gosh Ill have to scan my entire drawing book one day so you can all see what Ive been doing :p And silly Para, everyone has their own pace, Im sure that all that redrawing will help you with your style in the end. You will see, one day my dear Para you will be able to draw your sona with a snap of your fingers.
It is Para but there is always room to get better :p Thats why you need to keep doing more and more of your sona silly. I remember looking back at the drawings I made back then and how my style was so different from what it is now, and how it evolved from something I wasnt satisfied with to something I do love now. Its like that picture of Hugh you did before and the one you did now, its different and evolved in a good way, but I know you can still make it even better.
Well if Nord really wanted to talk to me, and given aaalll the platforms of chat I'm in, he could at least send something. I'm not really mad just... annoyed. He went away, and cut contacts like many did.
And yeah, but I don't have much time to talk these days, I have my last chance project presentation in two days.